July is all about him

This month my son turns three. My heart breaks. I am so thankful he is healthy. I am so thankful he grew out of his GERDS he had as a baby. I am so thankful our Father in Heaven sent him to us. Just brings tears to my eyes he is growing up. Entirely to fast I may add. This month will be all about my little boy.

I try and get family pictures done twice a year. Just because he grow so fast.

I want to share something with you that makes him even more special. A year before he was born I went home to see my grandmother while she was dying. When I got there she was in her final stages of life. I didn't know that in just a few short hours after I arrived she would be with my grandfather in heaven. When I got there my aunt stopped me in front of her door and said. "Jenny (Only family calls me that and gets away with it) I need to prepare you for what you are about to see. She is very sick." I am glad she did that. Although she was still my beautiful grandma she didn't look the same. I curled up next to her and I just held her and cried. She cried with me. Although she didn't say anything. She didn't have to. I know she was glad I was home. I shared some things with her that make those final moments together some of the most precious to me.

We have a running joke in our family that the twins I miscarried will come back. Although it may never happen we talk about it. As I laid in that bed with her, sharing the last few moments on earth, I said "Grandma, if you see my babies will you please send them back to me." She squeezed my hands and tears streamed down her face. We both laid there and cried. Less than six hours later she took her last breaths. I still miss her. She died June 4th 2010

Caden was born on July 20th 2011. I don't think it was a coincidence.